Where else would I be, since becoming undone?

Where else would I be, since becoming undone?

I have been arguing with myself about BLOGGING I journal, more privately, but I know when I am led to share. SO
Over the last week or so I have been the subject of a drama that is either only to show that God really is a drama King(quoting Beth Moore) or some sort of "candid camera" is searching for a quitter.
WELL either way I have had much drama, and keep looking for that lens, but I dont find it. You know what else I dont find?? Tension, anger, resentment, hate, sorrow, worry, ITS JUST NOT FLIPPIN THERE! Wow, God is that good... even things we PROCLAIM over our lives He disproves, when we know who we are in Him. "It's just in my nature" or "I was born to freak out" are disproven when the true nature of Jesus is revealed to you by the Holy Spirit. Don't get me wrong, its not roses and giggles. it is obedience on a different level because you love Jesus so much for what He did for you. Not for the checklist of things you want God to do for you, but for the promises He has spoken over you. The Thoughts HE thinks of you. For those of you that dont know my personal testimony, I am not ready to put it out on Myspace, I have a personal blog, and would share that or tell you what God has done for me, but I believe God wants every person to experience the freedom that comes through Jesus.Now, just for the sake of not being silent, my list of the things Jesus has given me strength to endure in the last hmmm 10 days(Philippians 4:13)

I have lost a best friend, to words
I have blown the motor up in my van(that transports us and equipment to shows and is my hubbys way around)
My car was ran into by my neighbor, $1600 worth of damage... and really its my moms car
My main hard drive with most of my (not backed up anywhere else)pictures and music CRASHED
And my expectations are tiny but I serve a GREAT BIG GOD
because,
I am praying for my friends heart to be touched by God and realize that you cannot hold something against someone and come before God with any offering. Plus, only the Holy Spirit can reveal the TRUTH to someone.
My hubby, Joe, did not yell, cuss or get angry with me over what happened to the van (WHAT!!??!!) yeah, God is working in my family.
My neighbors insurance is gonna pay for the car and the rental(yay a festiva lol)and my mom DID NOT FREAK OUT AT ALL whoa ... if you only knew how scared I was, I prayed for like two hours b4 I called her, she said no big deal, just get it fixed. The HOLY SPIRIT is contagious?!!? My oldest daughter Lindsie got saved today at church! Thank you Jesus.
Oh, and there is hope that my pictures and such can b saved, and I am typing to you on a computer that was a straight up GIFT from God, and someone God has testified greatness through straight to my heart
JEHOVAH JIREH is the GOD WHO SEES thank you Lord for seeing ABOVE my needs and meeting more than my expectations. And for changing me from Your enemy to Your friend. I love You JESUS!Do you know?

Where else would I be but at the
FEET of Jesus thanking Him
for the healing power in the Blood